Service

1 Peter 4:10- Each one should use whatever gift he has received to serve others, faithfully administering God's grace in its various forms.

I'm SO Thankfull that God has given me so many gifts. He has blessed me in so many ways, and I think it's time for me to start giving back. I want to live my life in service.

My church took several people to help a family in need. They needed a new roof, but they couldn't afford one on their own. My girls group came, all three of us! :P, and we worked until we were as dirty as we'd ever been. I was so proud of those girls! They worked so hard. On the way home, Hannah and I stopped and bought a gator-aid. We were so happy about the work we were able to do. It really opened my eyes! God has given me a strong back, strong legs, and so many friends to support me. Why not help others?

With all this in mind I decided to make some life changed! I've decided to go to college to major in communications and minor in youth ministries. Hopefully, I'll be able to help in worship too! I'm so exc ited about my life decisions, and I hope that God will continue to remind me of the gifts He's given me. I hope I always remember to give back my whole life.

The Prayer of a Broken Heart

Dear God, Give me wisdom. Give me understanding. Give me hope. Give me peace. Please grant me the peace in this situation to navigate through this storm. Give me hope to hold on to, to help me believe this isn't forever. Give me understanding to know why this is happening. Give me wisdom to trust and hold on.

I'm hurting. I need peace during this hard time. Peace to make this terrible feeling go away. I need hope to guide me through. Sometimes I feel like happiness in my life is hopeless. I need understanding because I have no clue what's going on. I need wisdom to gain more understanding.

Lord, why did you let this happen? I thought so many good things were happening to me, and one of the things I care most about in life is gone. I don't understand, and I'm angry and heartbroken. I know I need to move on, but I don't have the strength. I don't understand. I'm so tired of not udnerstanding. I want my suffering to end. What did I do to deserve such painfull chastisment?

All I want to do for the rest of my life is sit here and feel sorry for myself. My voice betrays me. I'm afraid I'm losing it. I'm losing my voice. I'm losing my heart.

Dear God..... I..... I'm so tired of I......

Valentines day!

Have you ever been in love? I HAVE! It's so amazing. It feels like you don't need anything else in the world except the love of that one person. It's so very amazing. That's why I'm so excited about this Valentines day. God has blessed me this year with someone to love and love me. I just have to love and thank God everyday!

So this Valentines day, God has given me the opportunity to go visit my "Special Someone." He's away right now, and I miss him so much! But another thing that's so amazing about love is the wait is so worth it. God's love is so amazing! Thank you God for sending me love!

I'M IN LOVE!!! I'M IN LOVE!!! I'M IN LOVE!!!

Why is it so very hard?

We gave away our dog because she was too rowdy. That was hard.

My granny died when I was 8. That very hard.

My best friend moved away.... far away... that still is very hard, but what seems to be harder than that, is understanding. Why is it so hard? I pray; I read my Bible. Do I really have a lack of interest? Certainly not.... I want to be what God wants me to be, and I want to walk on the right path.

I've considered starting a Bible study for some of my middle school friends. I think it would be good for everyone. The girls, because they would be able to gather and learn with each other. Me, because I'd get to experience the lessons on a deeper level. I'll have to more than learn what I'm wanting to teach. But maybe I'm not ready to teach a class. Maybe it's not time. I'm wodnering if I should go ahead and do the Bible study, or do I wait until I've grown as a Christian more. Oh.... Why is it so very hard!!!!!

I will tell you, if you will listen.

So, I was talking with God the other day, and I'm going through my normal,

"God please help David, and please help Daniel, and please help Tara...."

Then I remembered all the help I needed.

"Oh! And God please help me!"

Well, things started becoming really hard on me. One thing lead to another and each day got harder and harder to move on. I wanted to cry and scream. I had no idea what was going on with me! Friends leaving me left and right, I was losing interest in things that I had always cared about. I recieved no acceptence anywhere. My friends left me; my church depressed me; my family irked me. I had no idea what to do. Fianlly I yelled,

"GOD WHAT DO I DO!"

Except this time He didn't give me seen solution. All He said was, I will tell you if you will listen. I didn't know how to listen. It had nevered occured to me that I wasn't listening. I was completely ignoring what God was telling me to do.

Well when I finally gave up, God gave me my friends back. Not only did I have a couple of good, stable friends who really cared about me, I had peace. A deep satifying peace that I had never gotten from anything else ever before. I know this kind of peace only comes from God. The world still hurts. Things happen everyday that I don't think I can live through, but with Jesus on my side I know all I have to do is give up. Jesus will take care of the rest. God told me; I listened. Now, I told you. Did you listen?